Few words

just now i had a video call with kexin on msn. only came to know that most laptops have built-in mics. hahaha. kexin was very funny, and even mom wanted to take a peek and join in our video call. so lame. :D

this afternoon i had tuition with my p3 kid again. today he was very sad as he couldn't play with his friend. when i asked him to do work, he ignored me and went on to write his 500-word 习字 (while emo-ing all thru) so i just watched him write and do some marking. however after finishing the 习字, he was excited to show it to his mom and got all hyper and active again. and he thanked me for any reason which i failed to catch (to my surprise). hahaha. then his mom and i were glad that he cheered up totally after the tuition. this lovely kid! :D

dad bought oreo cheesecake from bakerzin. so we had oreo cheesecakes for breakfast the whole week. ((;

ohkay, there're a few things i ought to get done by this week... a reminder for myself:-

• return timezone uniform
• collect sgc from tpjc
• collect a level cert from moe branch
• apply for tourism academy at sentosa (very important!!)

deadlines are drawing near!!

Safe side

after all, i've decided to keep on the safe side of life. staying at home nowadays and continue giving tuition, doing what i always did on fridays and saturdays whilst leaving sundays free (oh ya, i can go back to hsinghai practices with ron and sis!). i've become more wary and faint-hearted at least for now, yet stronger at the same time. and ya, i'm not moving anywhere else, at least not now.

this evening someone from timezone messaged me, to chat. i don't really know who this person is though, but this person claimed to be bored and just wanted to chat. surprised me with randomness.

digress a bit:- last saturday i accidentally bumped into weilie after giving tuition, by some pure coincidence he agreed to accompany me to attend svc, i felt plain lucky to have a companion at then. and he talked damn funny one, kept me laughing throughout.

sometimes i feel really disappointed with myself, as i've disappointed a lot of people. i feel really short at times.

心里有数

ohs, and today is celine's birthday! happy birthday my dear girl, hope you'll be seeing this. ((;

Most dreaded

that particular evening, i left my job, unexpectedly but decisively. infact one of the happiest decision i've made so far. dun want to think of it ever again. it sends shiver down my spine.

so i didn't quit my job. instead i filled up nx week's schedule with full flow again -_- i must be crazy. actually on my way to work a thought struck me- since i'm constantly needing a source of pocket money, wouldn't it be worse if i stop working? afterall i can always apply for short working hours, right? hehe.

the past few hours of work came and go in the blink of an eye as this afternoon was BUSY. i was constantly occupied, infact multi-tasking. 

anyway mom and dad went out to do some stuff today thus leaving sis and i alone to settle our own dinner. sis went to call pizza hut delivery and we had a great 'feast' when i came home after work. :D

hey i'm starting to eye the zen MX media player. i've been downloading lots of songs from the internet these few days. haha... :P

Update

i just realised, the best remedy to earblock, is to eat. and i just did the right thing. haha :D

watching the documentary on michael jackson's life last week made me feel pitiful about his life. never a loyal fan of his, the name MJ still never fails to me sit up and listen though, partly due to mom and dad's influence. not just a tremendous pop icon in my mind, there's much more to him about his respectable characters/qualities (at least i know he loved his children dearly). now that he's gone, the whole world is mourning over his departure, pointless? i think it's such a waste that a supernatural talent's gone. and ya, i really pity him (as in really feel sad for him) for never being truly proud of who he was, and for his father to have mistreated him and created such an imbalance in his emotional growth, almost ruining his entire life and person. his dance moves and stage presence is the most entrancing thing ever. and for that matter, he's really got an overdose of the supernatural gift, an extraordinary human being. he's just ill-fated to life. and let MJ's death be a reminder for us to treasure ppl around us when they're still around.

last night, talking to yingshuang opened up a whole new dimension of my understanding towards ourselves(myself). for the fact that we're similar in a few areas, maybe that's why she understood better than myself. so we've come to realise we have really short temper and a downfall for hotheadedness. lol. 

lastly, i'm thinking of quiting my job. somehow it's too far from my house and the pay is not yet high enough to compensate for the travelling hassle as well as the long hours of standing. but i'm still happy to say that up to this day, this job is pretty cool and is one of the most flexible working environment, probably a good working experience. ((;

a quick picture to end off...

:D

Shape Test

You Are Skilled

You are balanced and competent. You value harmony. Other people see you as outgoing, hyper, and even a bit overwhelming. Your ideal romantic relationship is unconventional, wild, and very public. You do best in tasks that require you to be logical, hard-working, and courageous.

The Shape Test

Trash

i've decided to separate this portion out exclusively cos i don't wanna contaminate my previous post.

i've recently come across and know a whole lot more about people. on the overall, sometimes i feel that people are too judgemental, too quick to pass judgements, and some love to draw fences to sideline some other in an attempt to seek attention maybe? not wanting to pass any jugements, i'll learn to come to terms without reacting. and i understand that people have their imperfections no matter where they're from. 

AND watch who u're talking to. some people might be quiet and like a good-listener on the outside but they may be just quiet and soft-spoken for the wrong reasons. beware of hypocrites juveniles. such freakishly junvenile act makes me feel extremely 恶心, it makes me lose trust and respect for her as a grownup.
(like lets say you've told a person something on a conversational level, only to realise she goes around 'reporting' or 'transferring data' to another person(s), as well as overanalyzing the things you say/do, will you freak out? and why make things turn so political when it was initially casual.)

eeeeeeeee don't even wanna think of all this again. people who aren't really treating others and themselves as adults. PUI

i've come to learn that not all the people everywhere must be as gracious/pleasant as people you meet in school (or at work). they come in great diversity. anyway i'll learn to maintain my cool and not freak out so easily anymore.

After long

last whole week was a break-off from work, my life was at its fullest! i went out with kexin and had a loooong long chat (which was so necessarily therapeutic u know). i also managed to catch up with sharon on friday night, we had dinner at saycheez. 

kexin had been a bad peer influence last wk for luring me to stay up late every night to online. super lack of discipline! and my face look like ghost after the unhourly night sleeps... (all your fault!)

anyway my childhood friend of nearly 10 years-kexin- just left for australia this evening, i felt so sad not being able to see her off due to work, also felt very lousy as a friend for procrastinating so much that i didn't pick time out to prepare the gift i'd initially planned to give. i'd wanted to write a loooong long letter and buy something cute and significant one. (you won't jue jiao with me right?) haha, i'll send u handwritten letters i promise!! and i've decided to stop missing you. wait become so emo. :D

i'm moving to sharon's house for a short period of time next month. mom advised me to earn more money meanwhile so that i can support myself financially at then. and i'm thinking how to pack my things. i got so many needs.

i've decided that not working, and staying at home everyday to do nothings, or simply keep myself busy doing housework, is a way of life. work has worn me off terribly.

haha, i'm happy for the next 3 off-days! :D

i'm really glad to have a heart-to-heart talk with someone in the same boat as me right now. thou it's not our very usual communication style... but most importantly, i managed to cheer her up a little (or maybe not at all) hehe. (;

the past few days have been, well, nice (that's all i can think of already). i've been giving tuition more frequently again recently thereby handling both jobs simultaneously. it's quite alright still, i can manage. 

i finally went out with kexin after tuition the other day, (something that motivated me thru/o the day :P) we had dinner at parkway hawker centre and went arcade thereafter, the value in my card fell like free fall. after that we got ourselves each a pair of shorts from cotton on at only $5.

on friday i went to give tuition in the evening after work. jaslin told me that after i left, 4 police went to the arcade as a couple was caught sniffing glue. there was a commotion in the arcade at then.

i've made up my mind to study mass comm at tp. it's really been tough this period of time but keeping in mind what's more important for the future, the efforts will come to be valued in the days to come. 

guess i'll learn to shut my trap from now on. more things said equates to more chances of saying wrong things that have the potential of cooking up unnecessary commotion and gossip topics. not very pleasant hor? lol.

lastly i thank life for putting friends in my life (sounds wrong?). never once had i felt as though i'm walking rough patches alone.

Tired

i'm dead tired. in fact, totally drained off. today is finally an off day. despite sleeping the whole morning away, i'm still feeling tired. anyway, tuition later. giving tuition is a rewarding job. haha. i'm really very tired. bye!

Update!!

i'm back! life has been busy!

actually i don't really know what i've been doing these few days, my memory is seriously failing me. however, one thing's for sure- i've been working quite frequently in the recent weeks.

today the girls went to zoo. jaslin waited for me to knock off from work and she filled me up with details of the zoo trip with the girls while on our way home. i miss the girls and 06s10! hanging out makes me feel youthful. :P

i got my pay on friday but have spent all on books, debts and food. i'm satisfied aledi!

for the next upcoming weeks, i hope that:
-work will be less tedious (i'll reconsider my work schedule)
-i'll regain motivation when back to giving tuition
-catch up on reading
-catch up with friends
-lead a more disciplined life by going to bed at the right time

ciaos!~

tutor joan just talked to me. it's amazing, the loads and burden that have been suffocating me for what seems like decades suddenly just disappeared! i have more faith and believe in myself now. and even if things fail to turn out the way i've wanted, guess i'd be able to handle it more readily too. yes be strong. :D

jaslin and i found a new job a week ago at an arcade and we've started working. despite the low pay, i felt very comfortable in that environment. it's a happy working place, altogether with the very flexible working days and hours. :D oh ya did i mention, i kept dropping things on my 2nd day, and i made a box of goodies topple such that everything scattered all over the floor! hahaha, and i thought one of the supervisors was very attitude so serve her(them) right for having to entertain the mess. :P

this afternoon, i went to do survey at SP thereby coinciding with the year 3's graduation ceremony. we managed to get all our forms completed. :)

and recently, the aspects of my life are still not really settled. no actually it's just the uni issue bugging me and it's like the most important of all in my life right now... i'm still anticipating positive outcomes for this matter. 

so i'm really tired now... ciaos!~

Back to blogging

Isetan Private Sales

last week got isetan private sales. there was a shopping craze at orchard rd isetan as early as 8.30am on the day of sales! even before we started work, the queue was already long and ushered by securities.

it was a busy day. i was lucky for having sharon going to work and knocking off with me, and having lunch and dinner breaks together. it was by sheer luck that our break times coincided. we had both lunch and dinner at pepper lunch (and at the same table!) as we couldn't bother to venture any further. and she actually told me some very funny incident that happened in changkat pri over dinner.

also, i was assigned to do cashiering the whole day (and was my first cashiering experience), cashiering was fun! the auntie(senior staff) who was my partner was so nice to work with. despite the 12 hours of standing(minus the break times), that was practically the first time i thought doing sales was fun. oh and did i mention, neighbour and i were in the same section so we kept bumping into each other the whole day. hahas!

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on friday i met up with peizhuang for lunch and shopping the last time before she left for vietnam. we squeezed at a pathetic dining area next to the shop but nevertheless, lunch was still great.

on friday night, i had sambal stingray at changi village. good food you know... but not always have. (;

last night had dinner at botak jones, i finally knew what chilli corn carne is after coming across this term in The Sims 2. ((; it wasn't exquisitely delicious at all thou. then went to play pool. (actually i think i got improve a little bit! haha :p)

today i went hsinghai with ronale for practice, after which we went shopping at tampines one. on our way to tampines i fell aslp on the bus and woke up to find my music scores crumpled and folded, and so was my bag. it wasn't very glam but i was very very desperate to sleep at that point of time.

anyway my heart fell this whole day. it's regarding university stuff, not that i've gotten any answer positive or negative, but it's worrysome. plus i've never been really lucky for a very long time alr. i want need miracles.

and lastly, finally dinner at home with family tonight! (;

i consider myself lucky to be assigned to the ladies' shoes section for isetan private sales briefing last week. neighbour was put to the ladies' shoes section also BUT TOO BAD HE'S A GUY! haha. yingshuang waited for me for one whole hour just for the briefing to end. we went window shopping at the paragon.

last saturday, i finally got to enjoy food like never before. we had dinner at a japanese restaurant (forgot the name) at the central. i want to go back there again cos the food was really nice.

i realised this fashion clothes not that bad. quite nice and CHEAP. too bad i have tight budget.

today is dad's birthday. nothing much happened.

last nite very fun, we played taboo. taboo is really very fun! 

i bought a pair of sandals and a pair of slippers, both are white in colour!

i went back tpjc co ytd afternoon with ron and sis, together with some other tpjc-prss juniors. we just sat around chit-chat and took some pictures, that's all.

ytd i bumped into suria's channel anugerah contest at eastpoint. so funny lah some people sing. but it's nothing wrong for youngsters to fight their way to stardom, it's their dream afterall.

cousin came last last night. she and bf bought lots of chocolates and nougats from new zealand. i ate lots of chocolates today. 

bottomline: i'm frustrated. still very frustrated.

seriously, i forgot how to blog alr. too many things to update but dunno where to begin.

danielle comes to chat with me out of the blue! :D and she mentioned about "the gossipers", the clique we formed in secondary school. hahaha :D erm gossipers sound super bad though. (don't judge me based on this)

teach me how to fall gracefully.

(:

sigh. still very tired. i'm officially emotionally and physically vacuumed. restoration please...